For the past two years I have been having bouts of depression. I end up feeling anxious or worn out for no real reason and I find it really hard to communicate with people without lashing out at them. It happens even for short periods of time, like I might go from happy to distressed and angry from hour to hour. It’s affecting my work and I need to find a way to manage it before it causes major problems with my colleagues. Any help would be greatly appreciated.
I’m so sorry to hear you’re having such a difficult time trying to control your mixed feelings. It sounds as though you are struggling to cope while you try to continue to work away as normal. This must be very stressful for you and may be exacerbating your feelings of being troubled and unsettled.
I would suggest you visit your doctor to rule out any medical issues. Once it’s confirmed you are physically well, you can ask to be referred to a counsellor who will help you to explore the anxiety and depression and, uncover any underlying issues.
You mentioned these mixed emotions surfaced about two years ago. I am wondering if you suffered a particularly upsetting event back then? We know that suppressed trauma is a major cause of depression so it’s important that you are kind to yourself and find the best support available, writing to us is the first step in that journey.
There are a number of techniques a counsellor can help you with but, in the meantime, try to stay healthy. If you can: exercise, even a short walk in the fresh air can be beneficial, eat healthily, avoiding too much sugar, alcohol and caffeine, engage with friends, family and even colleagues as much as possible and try to do activities you enjoy, even if you don’t feel like it.
Sadly, anxiety and depression are very common problems but fortunately there is a lot of help available, so don’t give up. I encourage you to talk to someone and, consider finding a professional counsellor.